“Suffering” I like to suffer I like someone's hatred Pain and suffering never leave me alone Sorry and misery are my friends Everyday a new problem arises This sea of troubles never subsides Cloud of dust hovers around But my soul is still abound My life is as dry as dust And is as arid as a desert Like a cactus in a desert are long rooted Pang and grief in me are deep rooted Like aquarium without fishes My life is without happiness And is as empty as space Life with discomfort and emptiness Give me numbness and distress I can feel neither sensation Nor respiration, nor pulsation I am neither diseased Nor ceased, nor frigid I am unable to remember When I start dying while living “ I Love You” You came into my life Quietly, simply, placidly And my world stood still. I couldn’t express in words Or even in simple gestures The secret I kept in my heart. So I loved you in silence Admired you from a distance Dreamt of you from far away. I wanted to say I love you I wanted to say I care for you But cowardly, may be you laugh So, in silence I loved you and cared for. You were so full of life Always smiling and carefree Life loved you being a part of it And I loved you being a part of me I will be missing you. Rushing to my head When I am sitting alone on my bed And the memories come Oh! How much I missed your smile That smile that could brighten anyone's day especially mine. If you only knew how much my heart longs for you To hold you in my arms And to feel your warmth To gaze into your eyes And be lost in your love.. But when I open my eyes You are nowhere in sight Please come back to me And fill this void inside me Because my life means nothing without you.. “ Long Wait” Long and long has been waiting Standing under the same sun for ages Hope you come one day And bring back the life in me. Air, water, fire all I faced Blessed with the shield of your memories These gleaming eyes look at the same path To see you sparkle again in the twilight. Time is running fast like a magic Bringing you closer to me with every beat These stranded ears search the same sound To hear your jingle in the wilderness. Just then everything comes to a standstill And I hear the arrival of your footsteps These playful nostrils sniff the bland air To smell your sweet fragrance. A gush of air blows across me Bewaring me of your presence in solitude These heartfelt hands rumble around in emptiness To feel the touch of your soft skin The birds chirp and fly high around me As though you, swinging in my arms These velvety lips tremble on their destination To kiss the glory of love in you. The surrounding filled with throb of my heart Life rejuvenating again, God's grace You came closer to me, so very close To merge your soul into mine..... Till memory lasts and life departs You'll remain forever in my heart!!! By :- Surendra Upadhaya